Unbearable lightness v. 2.0.

[wolfpangs]

So I didn't get the job I was hoping for. Oh, well.

But I did get my Sidekick! I am pleased to introduce Thor. His number is 251.229.0301--I don't know why I got a number with a Mobile area code (read: way at the other end of the state) but it's cool. I love it so much!

You can read my hiplog here.

I had a minor freakout this weekend about leaving my job but now I feel good about it again. Like I said before, I will. I will do whatever I want to do. I am not afraid anymore.

I talked to my boyfriend about San Francisco. I told him that I knew he could't move there atm--just bought a house--and if he wanted to break up with me, I understood but it's something I need to do, even if only for a little while. Surprisingly, he was okay with this. I mean, he'll feel how he feels obvs but he didn't want to break up.

I feel a tinge of shame, as if I should feel guilty about this, as if I'm being selfish. But then I think, I haven't been selfish enough. For too long, I've been thinking, I can't do this because I have to do that, or Who will do that if I leave to do this? and...enough. I must live my life, if only because there is no one else to do it for me.

Now that sounds a little too dramatic so let's lighten up, shall we? I am basking in the glory of not having to do anything for a short time, as I'm sure I'll have plenty to do shortly--if I don't find a regular massage job within two weeks, I'm taking the first dumb job that comes along. Today I'm:

*relaxing with my beloved City Confidential (please repeat the Knoxville episode soon!), *thinking about making cookies--have to do something with this bag of Nestle Chocolatier dark chocolate chunks...pumpkin chocolate chip?
*job-hunting


*Feeling okay. Okay?

Comments

[whyelaborate.livejournal.com]

That's the spirit. Don't be ashamed.

<3

[rockgeisha.livejournal.com]

♥

My veins are sparking and crackling with courage. It's like the perfect drug!

[kaytethinks.livejournal.com]

I must live my life, if only because there is no one else to do it for me.

Ahh, so true. *bighugs*

[blaireliza.livejournal.com]

You're definitely not being selfish. Sometimes we do what we have to do in life, no matter what people/society may tell us to do otherwise. What you're doing is looking out for #1 :o).

That said, you're still up for being moving buddies?